Today was a pretty shitty day. Getting judged in one of my organizations for being a shitty leader when I mess up once. They pretty told me to step down from my position of authority but I would still have all my responsibilities as that role. Just like my other group I get judged based on how the other people in the group are. Well sorry, for not being able to cook/bake well for our members, and sorry for going out of my way to drive you to get supplies for our events on my days off when I am not even supposed to be in the area, and sorry for giving it my all whenever I am there, and sorry for actually having my priorities straight and putting school first, and sorry for arranging my schedule so I have time for our meeting, and sorry for taking up space at meetings and giving out ideas but never being heard (just like so many other groups of “friends”)…… You know what? I am on the verge of just saying fuck it here is the shit I have for our org. GOODBYE! I do need shit like this when I have so many other important things to worry about. Oh and same goes for those that I call “friends”. Shit, if you invite me to hang out and then pretty much ignore me the entire time and only care about the only other guy in the group, don’t invite me next time. I am sick and tired of being the nice guy in these groups and trying to hold face in front of everyone. There are other people who are more worth the time and energy than you. And I bet if anyone from that org or and of those friends reads this they will use it against me cause they just look at what I do while I am around not everything that I do and have to do outside of the time I am there nor do you really care about any situation I am in……..